This is a bit of a heavy post for a Monday Musings, but I believe so strongly in authentic photos that accurately represent a couple, I have to translate that authenticity to my blog posts. And sometimes being authentic doesn’t mean chocolate and roses.
My husband has been anti-Valentine’s Day for as long as we’ve been together (probably longer) so after our first year, he would never give me gifts ON Valentine’s Day. Sounds horrible right? It’s not, I promise!
I would always get a surprise the week of Valentine’s or even the week after. His belief is that it’s important to show your partner how much you care for them all the time, not just on a corporate holiday.
But this year, he went and bucked tradition.
He sent me two things that I enjoy (cookies and fruit) and had them delivered on Valentine’s Day. Which was VERY surprising. I honestly expected something today…not yesterday. But as we are apart for the time being, he decided to send me something to cheer me up, knowing I would be surrounded by happy couples, and sorely missing him.
Surprisingly, Valentine’s Day was easy. But Saturday? Saturday was hard.
I try to remain upbeat and positive through this journey, but Saturday hit me like a ton of bricks. Sam Smith’s “Lay Me Down” (I’m tearing up now just writing this) popped up on my Pandora station and brought me to my knees.
That’s the thing they don’t tell you when your spouse is away, just how much you miss the small things. Laying next to each other in bed, opening your hearts to each other under the soft covers. Imagining the future, sharing dreams. I’m thankful that I have more good days than bad ones.
But music has a magical way of bringing out emotions we thought we had under control.
I know this is a temporary situation, and my goal for this post is not to be pitied, I just wanted to encourage anyone who is missing their spouse too. This pain is temporary and you will be stronger for it. Don’t be afraid to reach out to people when you need a shoulder to cry on. Try not to bottle your emotions, let yourself work through them. And try to stay focused on the many positive things in your life.
I’ve spent more time in prayer, just asking God to give me patience and strength. Sometimes begging Him. He helps me refocus on the infinite blessings in my life, everything from running water to owning a vehicle. The many things I tend to take for granted.
Fellow military wives, I’m praying for you. I pray that God gives you peace and strength. I pray that when you feel darkness you know it will soon be followed by light. I pray that you will flourish and find a deeper intimacy with your husband by having to write or FaceTime for interaction. I’m lifting you up.